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"All The Same" - Sick Puppies
"You Are The One" - Shiny Toy Guns
"Untouched" - The Veronicas 
"Dance Inside" - The All American Rejects

So, I created a new blog on a different website. Since I have that new blog, I won't be writing in here very much. The new blog is private and you need a code to create an account to be able to read it, so if you're interested in that then get in touch with me and I can probably find you a code :) I'm going to keep my LJ so that I can read all of your lovely updates because I love reading them. Just wanted to let you all know why I haven't really been on here anymore. 

Love you all.

Can it be May 30th now?
I want the dock to be open full time.

cnieafnhiaewnd! Going CRAZY.

To sum up the past week of my life:

• My mom's birthday is today. Happy birthday, mom! My dad walks in with a bouquet of flowers and a bottle of wine and says "Happy birthday! I got you flowers and alcohol, your two favorite things!" Hahaha. Oh, family.
• Started my waitressing job at Jim's Dock last weekend! Hostessing/bussing/waitressing is not as hard as I expected, which is nice. Plus I love people :)
• The dock is only open on weekends until the end of the month, which leaves me lots of free time during the week. Which means lots of reading and re-watching Glee. Suggest books for me to read!
• It's been raining a lot lately, but it's nice because it smells SO good! Also, I went for a walk on the beach last night, and nothing smells better than the ocean. It's lovely.
• Starting to read "The Truth About Forever" by Sarah Dessen. Not sure how I feel about it yet.
• Got my grades back. Not fantastic but definitely not terrible. I'll live.
• Been researching grad schools in NYC. Pretty sure that's where I want to end up.
• Still yearning to go to Ireland. I will make it happen.
• I've had THE weirdest dreams lately. Cliff diving and taking classes that involve analyzing Disney movies...uhhh, what?

That pretty much catches you up.

I hate leaving places. I always get too emotional about it.

I’ll read your books because they’ll remind me of you
And I’ll learn your notes so that I have a clue
And I’ll watch your films, so that I know them through and through

And I’ll do the things that remind me of you
And I’ll wash my hair in your shampoo
And I’ll buy your perfume and spray it ‘round my room
And I’ll smoke your cigarettes so that I’m dying too

It's over.
Freshman year. Oh Lord.

It's so weird to think of how fast this year flew by. I literally feel like I just moved in a month ago. In a way, I'm not ready for it to end yet. I have met so many amazing people this year and had some of the best times of my life. I have taken chances and done things that I never thought I would do and have said things that I never thought I would say. I have grown up, been kicked down, matured, become more silly, encountered many adventures, laughed like never before, cried like never before, and have all in all just changed. It's so natural and so strange.

I am going to miss so many people. I know that this summer is going to be incredibly tough while also being incredibly amazing, and I am thrilled and scared. 

I can't even find good enough words to describe how I feel.

School is almost over. Classes are over, exams are next week, and then it's all done. It's amazing how fast this year flew by. I realized that while reading Melissa's travel journal last night. So much has happened this year, good or bad, but I honestly wouldn't change any of it (except for maybe that time that I threw up at Wigwam). I like the person that I have been shaped into. I know that I am not perfect; we all have our flaws. But I think that overall I found more of myself at college and I'm glad.

I had a moment last night where I had this incredible urge to write out everything I was feeling into my journal. But as soon as I put the pen to paper, my mind became blank. That tends to happen a lot. I open myself up and let everything explode and burst, but I cannot capture the words to describe how I am feeling. Sometimes, I don't know how I'm feeling. And sometimes it's just impossible to describe. 

Yesterday definitely made it on the Top 5 Days of My Life list.